Friday, August 7, 2009

Betrayal

I do not trust people...
Holding back in relationships has become second nature - there is always an invisible wall, behind which your soul is protected, untouchable. You never completely give yourself to the relationship. When it is over, there may be pain, but it is transient, survivable, not destructive. You turn to your protected core and your trusted friends and you recover, maybe darker inside, but still whole.

Friendship betrayal is the ultimate emotional darkness. If you hold back from a friendship, it is not a true friendship. You do not build walls and when the friendship fails, there is no protection. When relationship breaks, you reach to your friends to help you get through. When friends betray you, who do you turn to? You start ques
tioning any loyalty, any connection that you have ever had. There is nothing to believe in but yourself. Unfortunately, the friendship betrayal strikes at your core and leaves you broken without anyone to rely on, even yourself, unable to repair the emotional damage...
I do not trust anyone....

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Nonsense and sensibility

The confusion of conflicting emotions can be a staggering predicament. We think that we know what we want and we proceed with our unwavering beliefs in what is right for us and what is not. Until an unexpected event turns our world upside down, shattering the seemingly solid balance that we have worked so hard to build. It challenges our convictions and forces us to reevaluate the premises on which we have constructed our projected future.