It is painful to stare your failures in the face, to realize too late that you have lost the most amazing life that you had and could have had, that you have brought yourself and someone else such pain and loss...

Lost love

В залеза на всяка вяра
настъпват мрак и тишина,
В залеза на всяка обич
настъпват болка и тъга.
Когато някой си отива,
нямаш сили да го спреш,
Когато виждаш че една любов умира,
не можеш с нея да умреш.
Разбираш, че мечтите са измама,
че си обичала, но обич вече няма,
че споменът е болка отлетяла,
че си била щастлива, но не си разбрала.

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Tired Of everything around me
I smile But I don't feel a thing no
I'm so far from where I need to be
I've given up on faith, on everything
There's a hole Inside of me
It's so cold Slowly killing me

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If I can't have you
Then I don't want anyone
I don't want anyone
If I can't have you
Then only damage has been done, baby
Think of all the love that you will lose
If I can't have you
Heartbeat cold sweat
Thoughts slippin' under
Can't fight no threat
'Cause there's just no use
One look, no hesitation I'm slipping into you
Forgive these eyes, these lips you're tastin'
No time to waste on an invitation
My shame, my self-control has suffered enough
And everybody wants to be loved
If I can't have you If I can't have you

Shattered reality

Utter happiness followed by unbearable heartbreak... Lines crossed irrevocably...Failures unforgivable and unforgiven...Shattered hopes and dreams...Fractured existence...The world will go on...Will I?...