The complexity of the mind

The complexity of our thoughts, emotions, actions, our entire life is created in the eternal connections of our mind. The subconsciousness drives every aspect of our identity and yet we cannot unravel it, analyze it or control it. Its very existence is denied by our always powerful, protective consciousness. How deep, how complex it is we cannot even imagine or believe, the reality and the perceptions tangled together, leaving us wandering in mental uncertainty, questioning every condition. Is there desire to protect the place of escape from the reality of me? Is there a place for me in that existential niche? Or is it a drive to preserve alternate state formulation? Is there a subconscious wish to face the past realities again, to see and feel them, a search for reconnection? Regret that they have come to pass?