Lost

I am lost...The words reverberate in my brain and there is no escape. I am lost in the reality and I am lost in the dreams. A reality that takes the life out of me. Dreams that pull me out of the darkness...only to plunge me back in. Utter happiness and crushing sadness. I am lost and I have lost an amazing part of my life. I cannot let go. How could I not. Someone once told me that if it is meant to be, it will be. I wished I could have faith in that. Life, love, loss. Shattered...Before I could have the chance to be whole.